Today’s message of encouragement touched upon the topic of “abuse”. It’s a strong word. My initial reaction was “it does not apply to me” but after much thought, I recognize at some point in my life, I have been afflicted with a form of abuse. It could've been by my ex-husband. Or a friend. It could be by an employer, co-worker or classmate.
Just the mere act of allowing one to take another for granted, is abusive. Today I reflected on the guilt I have carried for years (even up until this day) for leaving my marriage. A marriage that eventually became riddled with emotional abuse and exhaustion due to my ex-husband's alcoholism. It became a marriage without boundaries nor healthy non-negotiables.
Within today's 10 minutes of my journey back to self, I recognize that in those times, I was just as responsible for the abuse for not setting boundaries. I consistently allowed myself to be the door mat because I never anchored myself in my values of respect, self-love and acceptance.
How we do anything is how we do everything. In retrospect, the outcome of my failed marriage, an unhealthy relationship with food and money, along with detrimental friendships comes as no surprise.
So today, after my 10 minutes of self-care and reflection, I consciously take my power back. I anchor myself in my values. I set boundaries. I let go of the past mistakes and the pain I accrued over the years from them.
Today, I am free. Free of any judgement - from others but most importantly, judgement of myself!
Today, I am grateful. Grateful for the awareness and the ability to go back to basics and take 10 minutes of self-care each day.
Today I reclaim my life. I align myself in a faith in my Higher Power.
I am the co-creator of my life.
I will live it to the best of my ability without judgement in kindness to myself and to other.
I reclaim my day today.
It is mine.
How will you reclaim yours?
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